Since the end of March I've been having some near-debilitating health issues, and in late May I was formally diagnosed with a chronic pain/chronic fatigue condition.
I want to be real with you: it's been confusing and emotional. To be just barely into my third decade of life and diagnosed with a chronic illness is mind-boggling. It feels like so many of my symptoms are unpredictable, and what may be disruptive for my system one day won't be on another day. I've slowly started making some connections, e.g., poor sleep = major pain and brain fog the next day; humidity = pain in my bones and an increase in irritability.
I want to also be clear with you: I'm not sharing this for sympathy, for empathy, or for people to treat me differently. I certainly appreciate the well wishes that have come my way, but this post is a way of me beginning to make meaning out of my suffering; to hold myself accountable for changes I need to make; to dive deeper into my understanding of myself through keeping a record. As a therapist and a blogger, I hope that my words resonate with someone and in some way help them on their own personal wellness journey; however, my sharing is for me, and is genuinely not ego-driven.
So, here's how the journey has been so far...